i am back

                                 hello there , 

it has bin a while since i posted something here , so here i am i am back . 
for the past tree weeks i have bin very busy ,  i have bin uploading an making videos for my YouTube channel .
an the truth  is ,   it is very hard to make videos people like .

but even tho i just love making them , it makes me feel good about myself .

but even tho i have bin working hard on my videos , i also have bin working hard on myself .

you see i have some problems , i have an anxiety disorder  an a depression .

i have bin dealing whit it for over six years , an sometimes it is hard .

because there are times that i feel  so tired  , an those days are the worst .

but making videos an being online makes me feels good , an gives me something positive to hold on to .

i have bin going out side more , i have more spirit .

i am happy , i guise that i have the internet an all those YouTubers to thank fore that .

an don't forget my best friend who sometimes shows me that i need to get of my ass , an do something whit my live .

everyday i watch YouTube videos , everyday one or more videos make me laugh .

an because of that i get more energy , so thanks  .

can YouTube change your live ,

i believe it can , i mean it changed my live an i am thankful for that .

i was falling down , when i saw this video one day . 

for those who are depressed , made by bribry a Irish youtuber .

i watch that video when i was down , an it made me cry .

because even tho i already knew it , i wasn't alone in the world .

it was then when i realized , that i needed to do something whit my live before i would trow my live away .  

that's when i really started to realize that there was one thing that i was good in , talking .

i am a chatterbox , really i can talk for hours about everything an noting .

so i started looking around on the internet , an found more than i could dream of .

million´s of videos that were helping me to get better , an than my best friend told me about these other youtubers making videos .

so here i am know , trying to make video writing blogs , to make me feel better an to share things i care about whit you all .

well this is it this is what i wanted to share whit you all , 

i am going to make more videos , i am going to write more blogs .

not only for myself but also for you gays , because what you all think is just ass important for me as what i think . 

see you all later adios .